05.20.15
My happy place is ever changing. Negativity often swallows an environment that once made me content but I have found that is just the natural cycle of things. At the moment I am content when I sit on a bench, alone or with close friends, around the river bend from a small fishing cove, tucked behind a veil of greenery.
On occasion, a close friend of mine going to school in the city comes to join me here, coffee in one hand, a burning cigarette in the other. There is no awkward small talk necessary which is unbelievably gratifying, and I don't feel the need to say anything if I don't want to. We go early in the morning or late at night, but most often at dusk, when the sky is a gentle tangerine orange with wisps of lavender. The perfume of blooming flowers in the spring in combination with this scenery is serene and overwhelmingly calming. Cool gray smoke unfurls and spills out from his lips, spiraling down and outward into the air. He recants his latest experiences and accomplishments which I listen to with ease. I'm always happy for him, always proud.
These brief fleeting hours in which I get to be in the company of someone I care about deeply always brings about a profound appreciation for the people in my life. Unfortunately many of the people close to me are actually very far away. My best friends fled to California and New Mexico at the conclusion of their high school careers. The distance has given me the opportunity to gain a strong understanding for always letting the people who love you know what the mean to you, especially when they physically cant be there with you. I found that on days when nostalgia begins to take over all I want to do Is let them know I love them.
At this point im kind of at a loss of what else to say on the topic, so tozz says I should talk about college. college seems fun but my dream school that I have fallen in love with is extremely unlikely that I will get in. I'm hoping that disconnecting myself from New Paltz will help me deal with change better then I do know. I'm going to go for cultural anthropology or peace and conflict studies in hopes of learning how to help others in a substantial way. I might sound annoying for wanting that (because somehow that can be an annoying thing these days) but honestly I'm just giving it to ya straight.
Well done K$. You described places really well by providing the entire atmosphere and the sights, smells, and sounds.
ReplyDeleteI think it's pretty interesting that your happy place is always changing; it definitely reveals a lot about you as a person. It's a certain type of person who finds satisfaction in new environments. I think this trait will serve you well in having an exciting life, I can see you traveling a lot. The connection you have with your friends sounds pretty unique, personally I find it difficult to keep long distance relationships.
ReplyDeleteThis had awesome imagery, good Job K$. I also appreciate that you give it straight haha